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“There are some days that are just stranger than others.”   — Me –

Sometimes I wonder if the person going down the street realizes what “life” looks like now.  Just in my everyday get abouts - I see the busy streets - and realize that they are getting busier.  One person per car and everyone out for themselves. 

I went over to see a friend of mine, after of course wading through traffic, and we started chattn’ — like ya do.  Anyway, he said he saw another friend of ours that same day - said that he had come to a conclusion the night before.  “We are doomed to end up like other great civilizations.”  — I agree. — Frankly, so does my friend.  Our fate will be much worse than that of past civilizations -  There is far more to atone for.

Just the lives lead in general take no responsibility for actions, words, nothing.  I had to make up my mind a long time ago not to lie (& of course other things that qualify as “bad”) - and if I didn’t want to answer a question - I would have to leave or change the topic quickly.  Then I stopped being afraid of the beating I would get from my dad by being honest.  That has translated to an honest existance - not just existance but a better than pratical view of life. 

Now, even as I express myself on my blog here - I wonder how many of you have started to realize different things about yourself.  You have to want to change. If you change your ways, your life around you changes.  This takes work.  Takes honesty (with yourself and others). Takes values (better than what is accepted as the norm). Takes you.  See the world.  Go outside your 5 mile radius - see nature.  See how everything works. 

Here is a good example — I don’t like snakes.  I don’t. Can’t stand ‘em but will be working them.  ;-)  Till that time - I go around them and do not stomp on them.   Apply that to someone you don’t like or who doesn’t like you.  Don’t go looking for trouble.  If it finds you - thats a different story.

Atone yourself — be yourself but better.  Make sense?

I wonder if the $3 trillion dollar budget bill that was passed will include a raise for our congressmen?  I bet you it does.  I had a whole little thing written out on this because I’m erked by the lack of representation.  Since our reps feel that it is ok to amend the laws - how about we the people amend it this way.

A house of rep or a senator can only be elected twice to office and  here’s the kicker - they serve we the people for two years; take 8 years off; service for just another two years; and that’s it.  They would be paid with their states budget.  How about that?  It’ll never happen.  But think of what it would do for we the people.  Because we would actually have a rep — for us — “de common folk” — – they would be more apt to rep the state correctly and listen to what has pissed us, we the people, off.  See another thing - they wouldn’t get paid years after they retire. (Yes they still get paid after having been a rep for the state.)  Sucks doesn’t it.  They will never work as hard as you and I, again.  You will never be able to retire and live “the American dream”.  Never.  Have you been to Wally world? Have you been to Home Depot?  Have you noticed that there are a lot of “old people” who really shouldn’t be working but have no choice??? Okay - better question - do you care?

Of course - if this idea was ever taken into consideration - there would have to be a lot of closing of the loop holes and keep the checks and balances in place.  Don’t want another uber rich v. uber poor. 

My mom raised me well - I can say that and mean it.  I recently married and have finally been living life.  This is more so than normal. 

When I was early-20 something, my mom, in order to help me get over some schmucks I was with let me read some of her books.  Two of them stick out. The first one is “Maybe he’s just a jerk” and the other is “Maybe he’s just not that into you” — the authors names escape me; however, check out Oprah and you’ll get the author’s names.  Because of the values my mother instilled in me - these books help to put a “coat of armor” on when it came to listening to the inner voice that has been nurtured by her.  Things like: “You are your own person, no matter what”; “believe in you”; “you have a voice, use it”; or ”if you want change - only you can bring it about”.  (Yes, I know, “Am grammar is good”.)  Anyway, because of these things and other life events I am better equiped to know myself and not allow myself to mental abuse, or when and if a male thought they were going to get physical failed.  I developed a hell of a complex on “I will fuck your world up or go down trying” and frankly, I like being secure and having a companion who is just as secure. 

Now, here is the kicker.  Though I’m secure with myself - I know I can be better.  I am forever in a day reminding myself “I can still be better”.  My journals, yes journals, help me to realize where I have been, what my goals are/desires left to achieve, and what I ultimately want through life itself.  I am not perfect, but my life has been created by my design and I take responsibility for it.  My longing for balance and being comfortable, without being a snob, with a dose of unpredictability, makes life carefree and everything seen.  I only care about what three people think about my habits or life style, yet I still listen to sound advice that is asked for or not by others.  (Note: This may seem like a ramble, but it’s not.  I’m sure the message has been received loud and clear.)

This is my own.

Make your path and be responsible for it.

Become secure in yourself and own up to your design.

Again, this is my own.  No corroboration.