Values
My mom raised me well - I can say that and mean it. I recently married and have finally been living life. This is more so than normal.
When I was early-20 something, my mom, in order to help me get over some schmucks I was with let me read some of her books. Two of them stick out. The first one is “Maybe he’s just a jerk” and the other is “Maybe he’s just not that into you” — the authors names escape me; however, check out Oprah and you’ll get the author’s names. Because of the values my mother instilled in me - these books help to put a “coat of armor” on when it came to listening to the inner voice that has been nurtured by her. Things like: “You are your own person, no matter what”; “believe in you”; “you have a voice, use it”; or ”if you want change - only you can bring it about”. (Yes, I know, “Am grammar is good”.) Anyway, because of these things and other life events I am better equiped to know myself and not allow myself to mental abuse, or when and if a male thought they were going to get physical failed. I developed a hell of a complex on “I will fuck your world up or go down trying” and frankly, I like being secure and having a companion who is just as secure.
Now, here is the kicker. Though I’m secure with myself - I know I can be better. I am forever in a day reminding myself “I can still be better”. My journals, yes journals, help me to realize where I have been, what my goals are/desires left to achieve, and what I ultimately want through life itself. I am not perfect, but my life has been created by my design and I take responsibility for it. My longing for balance and being comfortable, without being a snob, with a dose of unpredictability, makes life carefree and everything seen. I only care about what three people think about my habits or life style, yet I still listen to sound advice that is asked for or not by others. (Note: This may seem like a ramble, but it’s not. I’m sure the message has been received loud and clear.)
This is my own.
Make your path and be responsible for it.
Become secure in yourself and own up to your design.
Again, this is my own. No corroboration.
